The Flip Side of Sunrise

I was waiting so long for the other shoe to drop. Instead of waiting anymore, I put my shoe back on and walked away.

I was thinking about not shitting where you eat/work w/r/t relationships. And then I was thinking that for a toilet cleaner, they may shit where they work. But that only creates more work for them so if I were a toilet cleaner I’d go shit in somebody else’s toilet.

I say I would go to the end of the earth for my dearest friends. Do I mean it? Or do I just say that, and we limit the ends to be, say, North America and western Europe?In the end, I have two options, disappoint my friends or disappoint my family. I am guaranteed to feel awful no matter which I do, no matter how much honor involved. If I stay here and nothing happens, I will feel like a coward. If I go and something happens, I could be dead, or worse. And if I go and nothing happens, it will be one of those things that I will remember and cherish for the rest of my life. Life is, I guess, all about making the tough decision. Striking out on our own, coming back to the nest, but mostly dealing with the consequences of your decisions. And dealing with the impact of those decisions on the person they affect the most: yourself.

If you found out tomorrow that God either did or didn’t exist, that shouldn’t affect how you live your life.

We were so involved in ourselves

And so inclined to just look at the details

We saw in the big picture what was really the negative – a valley where we saw mountains, a desert for the sea, a sword for the plowshare

Viewed from another angle, another perspective…

I’m not big on resolutions, presumably because I’m not very good at following through on them. However, I’ve decided that I’ll add a new resolution each month, starting with two in January:

1. Read a chapter of a book every day/night. Currently this is Henderson the Rain King, for the pretty obvious reason. I’m a sucker for good lyrics.

2. Shave every day. I’ve never done this. I obviously could, and I probably should given the pace of my facial hair growth, but I typically don’t organize my day enough to fit this in.

Other things I would like to do this year, but will not resolve (yet) to do are to write more (either here or elsewhere), clean my room (and therefore make my life feel a bit more sound) more frequently, and to take far more chances (not with my life, but with how I live it… to step out of my cocoon so to speak). Those who know me well know that I like to stay where I am comfortable. It’s time to stretch those bounds. Go to more concerts, experience new things. Start forgetting that things in the past happened and stop letting them affect how I’m living today or tomorrow.  Stop apologizing for things I am honest about. Maybe I should keep my mouth shut, but then again, maybe I’m better off saying these things.

Also, on my list of things I want to accomplish (written nearly two or three years ago) in my lifetime back in May 2005. Among the short term goals: shave every day, read 20 pages every day. Among the long term goals: finish an Ironman Triathlon.

Here’s the full list:

Everyday things that I want to do:

* Run/exercise everyday
* Read 20 pages a day
* Write to one friend a day
* Shower
* Brush teeth twice a day
* Shave

Lifelong things:

* Raise great children
* Be a good husband
* Visit every populated continent by 30
* Play in a professional golf tournament
* Earn $1,000,000 in one year
* Become an expert in one thing
* Become a CEO of a company
* Learn one art form
* Run a marathon
* Finish an Ironman Triathalon

Update:

*Also, I want to go heliskiing before I turn 30. This is more probable than visiting every continent, but maybe I’ll go heliskiing in South America or something.

This movie… I can’t tell whether I like the story, but the visuals are absolutely stunning.

I spent Christmas Eve and Day with the sibs that live in NYC. It was a holiday of unexpected fun. We bought a hodgepodge of food and beer from Whole Paycheck, went to my brother’s apartment, ate, drank and watched I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry. The food was surprisingly good, the beer unsurprisingly strong, and the movie surprisingly funny. In any case, a good old fashioned new age Jewish Christmas.

The next night, we went to dinner. On the way, my sister and her friend were discussing bars from Berlin. The bar names were all related to breakups. At which point we started talking about a future bar we would call “It’s Not You, It’s Me.” My brilliant addition? 2 for 1 drink specials for the recently dumped. The catch? You gotta give the second drink to someone else. Anyhow good times.

Also, good music? Paramore’s “Misery Business” and Boys Like Girls’ “Hero/Heroine.” Also, Bad Religion’s”Honest Goodbye.”

I’m tempted to start a pool based on when/whether people think I will finish the Ironman. Here’s how it would work:

You pick an hour (e.g. 12 hours, 13 hours) or a DNF and you get to put in a certain amount of money (I was thinking $10 each). You then split the pool with people who picked the same hour. I’m guessing the people that know me would probably put DNF.

So watch this space, cause I’m probably gonna do it.

Update: I’ll be writing the pool site this weekend.
Update2: Ok, well the code is mostly written, just a few glitches and stuff.

I’m updating Lebanon to DC again, even though it’s more likely just DC (and that’s not a gripe, I’m shocked/grateful that Dan tried in the first place and I’m not upset at all that I don’t think he’ll make Arizona… that’s life.